Waking up with pain in your shoulder blades is a good indicator of how your Tuesday is going to be. A terrible echo of the previous Tuesday. But I did learn my lesson and went to the Chiropractor this time. They put you on this table and when they put the tabby things on you that both heat and pulsate on the muscles of your back…I could have fell asleep, but well…coffee. It was very relaxing and when he adjusted my spine there were parts of my back that felt much better, but when he asked about my neck I should have said “Yes have some” because that is still hurting. So if I’m still in pain on Thursday I will go back. In happier news I have another day off of work! Doesn’t feel like a vacation, but it kind of is (let me have this). Debating how I will spend the rest of my day. Definitely not taking another muscle relaxer. Those are just great sleepy time pills.
Meanwhile my dog is finding all sorts of uncomfortable looking positions to lay down in so that she can curl up near me. I’m pretty sure she would be able to practice Yoga way better then me. Flawless downward dog!
Some days just get you down in the dumps. You start to feel like the deck is stacked against you and you just get into a spiral of self-pity. Today is most certainly one of those days. No details I’m all about smiles and laughter, but I’ll just say that my back issues weren’t helping.
Confession…I eat my feelings. Honestly I really don’t hide it so it’s hardly a confession. Tonight I was trying to find my happy thoughts and I found them at the bottom of what remained of my Ben and Jerrys Tonight Dough. My belly aches but my spirits are a little lighter. I do not recommend the feelings diet for those that like a not-so-curvy body. But old habits are hard to beat (especially when you really want to eat).
It has rained consistently throughout the day today. My doors are wide open and the cool breeze is blowing through the house. Thunder occasionally rolls across the sky. The desire is strong to run out into the grass in my birthday suit just soaking it all in as the birds sing around me. Of course that won’t really happen since my back is barely allowing me to do much but sleep right now. Muscle relaxers are a dream, quite literally.
There is this feeling I can’t shake like I really should be doing something of importance right now. Being off work for 3 days and in and out of slumber has made me a bit loopy and has thrown off my balance. Perhaps a parade around the grass in bare feet would do me some good…
Normal people when they are in pain will immediately seek out a professional to help them no matter whether they have the funds to pay for their services or not. I’m not one of those people. I wouldn’t say I have an abnormal tolerance for pain. When I’m in an extreme amount of pain I cry, I won’t deny it. However I will take my time to make the proper decision of whether I go to the ER (where they most certainly can aid me with the matter at hand) or Urgent Care (where they will likely just send me to the ER after wasting a significant amount of my time and charging me anyways).
That is where I sit this fine afternoon. Pondering who I won’t be paying, but still utilizing their services. As of right now I am in a considerable amount of pain. It is difficult to move…anywhere. When I do I usually cry out, grunt, start bawling or a combination of the three. Not normal. Definitely need help. Still haven’t left the house and I’ve been in pain now for nearly 12 hours. Sleep has been 2 hours here and 2 hours there and that is it. My dog looks far more rested then I do. I’m dressed comfortably though. Perhaps it is time to go to the ER? Of course I’ll be driving myself there which is likely a horribly bad idea. My other option is to seek others to help me get there, but I get anxiety just thinking of calling around for help. Of course there is always the option of waiting for my partner to return home in a few hours and have them take me instead. Yea I should probably do that. Now to just wait…